Feeling lousy...

Felt lousy about myself after talking to a colleague yesterday. She told me when she had her first child, she was still washing the toilet on the day of delivery. Now that she's carrying the second child, she still went grocery shopping on her own during lunch break yesterday. (The supermarket wasn't nearby at all.) She said it's normal to have pain at the lower abdominal area and she didn't get any cough or flu when she was pregnant. 

Gosh! I felt so weak and lousy then. :( And I realised how much I depended on my hubby on everything that I do... I can't remember where I kept my things, can't open and close my bed compartment without help, not comfortable to travel on public transport without my hubby. I feel tired after being at work for half a day. (And my colleague seemed completely alert and fresh at the end of the day!) 

I wish I can be stronger. I wish I have no cough and pain. I wish I can enjoy this pregnancy more. I wish I can remember things better. I wish I'm not so tired every day. I wish... 

Wishes aside, my right butt felt pain again and the pain didn't go off. Was limping as I walked. So I missed my staff retreat and year end lunch. Was so looking forward to see the pandas but now I'm just lying on the bed. And the cough, makes my left tummy so painful each time I cough that I desperately wants the cough to stop! 

I need the healing and deliverance of God! May He take away all the pain, sicknesses, discomfort and lousy feelings  from my body and my life! I want a happy pregnancy for my dearest Rachael! I pray for all these in Jesus' most precious name! Amen!